Wednesday, February 29, 2012

The Crazies in my Head!

I want to scream till my eardrums pop!
Take a baseball bat and break whats left of these walls in my head.
Drive at 120 miles an hour, into skies that break and cry from the storms. 
I want lightening to strike down on me, give me a buzz.
This calm is suffocating! 
I need chaos,
Lets start a riot!
Let there be loud voices and strong opinions,
Anything to wake me from this dullness.
Its a depression.
Connections aren't being made,
The synapses in my skull are disappearing one by one;
I'm shutting down.
Reboot me!
Stab me in the heart, so I can remember I have one!
Beat me till I feel pain.
Think I'll jump off a bridge,
Always wanted to fly!
You must think I'm crazy!
Well, you're absolutely right and I wouldn't change it for anything.

- Shammy 2/29/12 11:38am 

Sufi Poet, Rumi and British Street Artist, Banksy

"The minute I heard  my first love story I started looking for you, 
not knowing how blind that was. 
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. 
They're in each other all along"- Rumi

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

"You're never alone. I'm there with you. Can't you tell?" He said

Sunday, February 26, 2012

My Promise

After all these years, they've finally cleaned it up.
There's only one person in the whole world that knows the significance of this place...

Haven't been here in over a year. 
Everyday since I've met you, the need for it decreased. 
I thought I was getting better. 
I forgot the dreams I used to have every night, I forgot the darkness.
I thought it wasn't a part of me anymore, but lately I feel
like it is more a part of me than ever I thought it could be.

The dreams that used to haunt me are back. 
I'm scared to close my eyes and see the black.
I don't sleep. I don't eat. Is it just a matter of time? 

I am my own worst enemy. 
I know that. 
But after all is said and done, 
I won't be back. 

     - Shammy 2/26/12 3:48am

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Am i always to be second?

It feels like you took something out of me, spit on it, stepped on it, and flushed it down the toilet so that it wouldn't be your concern again till your bathroom overflowed. I'm naively hoping for the best but every night you spend with her I feel like kicking myself. This can't be my type. I deserve more. - Shammy 2/22/12 2:06am

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Amar Bangladesh

Amar Bangladesh.. Jonmoor Bhasha.. Prio Bhasha

Bangla is not simply just a language;
It’s a feeling,
A state of being,
An essence.
There’s a beauty in it.
It’s a love that can’t be extracted from me,
Nor can it be explained.
It’s what makes me
It’s the bhalobasha I feel
Amar bhoker bethore.
The maya I see, when I look at you.
The dukhko, that comes from knowing the potential of my people
Because the few in power have been corrupted.  

Shammy 2/18/12 5:32am 

“Language is the armory of the human mind, and at once contains the trophies of its past and the weapons of its future conquests.”- Samuel Taylor Coleridge, English poet and philosopher

“Language is the blood of the soul into which thoughts run and out of which they grow." 
United States Justice, Oliver Holmes

Monday, February 20, 2012


Am I still in that infatuation period?
Nothing you do seems to make me love you any less.
You muted me today while you spoke to Juju,
Honestly, I felt like it was my duty to be upset
But I just couldn’t do it.
There's this little voice inside me.
It’s a silence that speaks out loud,
In a language I’ve never heard before.
A calmness.
And I know.

- Shammy 2/20/12

Like what I've done with the place?

Friday, February 17, 2012


Why are people so quick to judge? 
What kind of a world is it that we live in, 
Where a good deed always has to have an ulterior motive? 
Was I naive all this time? 
Seeing the good in people, that was never there?

- Shammy 2/17/12 3:41am

Saturday, February 11, 2012


I would rather be lonely alone, than with you.
It’s the worst feeling in the world,
Having someone who isn’t really there.

- Shammy 2/11/12 1:12am