Empty Benches

Loving someone and being in love is two different things.

I miss the later.

Sometimes I glimpse it, but only sometimes

And then its gone, just as fast as it came.

- Shammy 5/1/12 6:21pm

Beacon of Light

You stand alone, through darkness and in light,

Grounded and able.

I look to you for guidance,

For direction.

Please, show me the way.

Shine bright, so that I may reach you.

The storms try with all their might

To bruise you, to break you

But there you are, standing tall and strong

Never to fall.

You keep to yourself, lonely and unafraid,

Apart, but essential.

Oh pillar of light, teach me not worship or fright from your might,

And I will seek you as the hummingbird seeks flight.

- Shammy 3/12/12 10:32pm

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Loving You

I could feel my heart breaking every second that you spend away from me,

Shivers down my spine,

Tingling feelings in my breast.

I can’t say what I mean,

I miss you isn’t enough.

I crave you,

No, that’s not right either.

With each sigh I let a little bit of you out

And yet,

Here you are taking up residence in my temple.

You’re the fuel that keeps my heart burning.

The motivation I feed on.

Without you my soul would shrivel up like a grape left out in the sun,

Endless desires waiting in the folds.

I wish you would part your lips and bite into me for a taste of sweet.

I’ll feel faint for a second,

Having my juices sucked out of me.

And then, we’d be one.

Let me come.

Let me feel your insides entangled with mine.

Don’t you see?

I need you,

For now and always.

- Shammy 3/3/12 1:59am

What Say You?

Maybe, I'm not how you want me to be.
I admit, I don't care much what the proper conventions are.
Go to uni, get a degree, become something in life.
It doesn't seem to suit me.
My days feel restricted.
Wake up,
Get dressed,
Sit in class,
Listen to students recite the ideas already in my head.
My thoughts have no boundaries,
No limits.
I want to do everything!
How can I work on the things I want when all my time goes sitting in a classroom?
I need the freedom.
There can't be rules, timelines, limitations.
No that just won't do!

One more year! 

One more year and I'll be done for awhile.

I want to see the deserts of Asia minor,

the rain forests of South America,

the mountains of Switzerland!

I want to live in houses with character,

And listen to the tunes the boatman sings at the closing of the night.

I want you to come with me,

Not on my journey,

But yours.

- Shammy 3/2/12 2:45pm 

Burning Bright.... Because You and I Together Light up the World

"Love is the only freedom in the world because it so elevates the spirit that the laws of humanity and the  phenomena of nature do not alter it's course." 

The Broken Wings, Kahlil Gibran

The Crazies in my Head!

I want to scream till my eardrums pop!
Take a baseball bat and break whats left of these walls in my head.
Drive at 120 miles an hour, into skies that break and cry from the storms. 
I want lightening to strike down on me, give me a buzz.
This calm is suffocating! 
I need chaos,
Havoc!
Lets start a riot!
Let there be loud voices and strong opinions,
Anything to wake me from this dullness.
Its a depression.
Connections aren't being made,
The synapses in my skull are disappearing one by one;
I'm shutting down.
Reboot me!
Stab me in the heart, so I can remember I have one!
Beat me till I feel pain.
Think I'll jump off a bridge,
Always wanted to fly!
You must think I'm crazy!
Well, you're absolutely right and I wouldn't change it for anything.


- Shammy 2/29/12 11:38am 

Sufi Poet, Rumi and British Street Artist, Banksy

"The minute I heard  my first love story I started looking for you, 

not knowing how blind that was. 

Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. 

They're in each other all along"- Rumi

"You're never alone. I'm there with you. Can't you tell?" He said

My Promise

After all these years, they've finally cleaned it up.
There's only one person in the whole world that knows the significance of this place...
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Haven't been here in over a year. 

Everyday since I've met you, the need for it decreased. 

I thought I was getting better. 

I forgot the dreams I used to have every night, I forgot the darkness.

I thought it wasn't a part of me anymore, but lately I feel

like it is more a part of me than ever I thought it could be.

The dreams that used to haunt me are back. 

I'm scared to close my eyes and see the black.

I don't sleep. I don't eat. Is it just a matter of time? 

I am my own worst enemy. 

I know that. 

But after all is said and done, 

I won't be back. 

     - Shammy 2/26/12 3:48am

Am i always to be second?

It feels like you took something out of me, spit on it, stepped on it, and flushed it down the toilet so that it wouldn't be your concern again till your bathroom overflowed. I'm naively hoping for the best but every night you spend with her I feel like kicking myself. This can't be my type. I deserve more. - Shammy 2/22/12 2:06am

Amar Bangladesh

Amar Bangladesh.. Jonmoor Bhasha.. Prio Bhasha

Bangla is not simply just a language;

It’s a feeling,

A state of being,

An essence.

There’s a beauty in it.

It’s a love that can’t be extracted from me,

Nor can it be explained.

It’s what makes me

Me.

It’s the bhalobasha I feel

Amar bhoker bethore.

The maya I see, when I look at you.

The dukhko, that comes from knowing the potential of my people

Neglected

Because the few in power have been corrupted.  


- Shammy 2/18/12 5:32am 

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“Language is the armory of the human mind, and at once contains the trophies of its past and the weapons of its future conquests.”- Samuel Taylor Coleridge, English poet and philosopher

“Language is the blood of the soul into which thoughts run and out of which they grow." 

United States Justice, Oliver Holmes

http://www.un.org/en/events/motherlanguageday/index.shtml

Trust

Am I still in that infatuation period?

Nothing you do seems to make me love you any less.

You muted me today while you spoke to Juju,

Honestly, I felt like it was my duty to be upset

But I just couldn’t do it.

There's this little voice inside me.
It’s a silence that speaks out loud,

In a language I’ve never heard before.

A calmness.

And I know.

- Shammy 2/20/12

Like what I've done with the place?

...

Why are people so quick to judge? 

What kind of a world is it that we live in, 

Where a good deed always has to have an ulterior motive? 

Was I naive all this time? 

Seeing the good in people, that was never there?

- Shammy 2/17/12 3:41am

Valentines Day

Treating myself to chocolatey goodness!  

Absentee

I would rather be lonely alone, than with you.

It’s the worst feeling in the world,

Having someone who isn’t really there.

- Shammy 2/11/12 1:12am